Today

Hello from Sydney. I am on the way to NYC but have to wait in transit for half my life before I get there. I'm typing off my mothers I-pad which has proved to be an extremely difficult endevour testing my will and my strength beyond human capacity. My outfit is really good but due to my card reader for the camera dying of exhaustion after the first flight we boarded I can't upload any pictures. I am jolly bored. I can't even eat the free sausages because they are FULL OF PORK.

I will now tell you that story.

Once upon a time I was very very young. I spent my summers and public holidays on the farm near our beach house where lived a lovely pig who I think I named Henry. I loved him with all my heart and one cloudy day he was simply... Gone. Someone had eaten him for Christmas. And thus I do not eat pigs.

Oh zana bayne. I FINALLY found something of hers I could ACTUALLY wear on my BODY. And I can't find it anywhere.

Must remember Patricia Field NY.

Well, sayonara.

Xx nico.

That's not generally on, Griffiths.

I just liked this photo because of how it makes me look, even though it didn't do what the whole point of taking it was; which was exhibit the shoes. so here are the shoes.

Jeans: thrifted, Shoes: fake No. 1 Shoes Doc Martens, Scarf: found at my house after my 18th, Hank or John green (I never remember) "This machine pawns noobs" t-shirt. It's my sisters but I fully endorse it. I like how rock it is when it's really such an ultimate nerd thing to wear. Which, I suppose, is somewhat the point.

I never read The God Delusion and as it came out in 4th Form (Year 10), when being Christian was all the rage and everybody went to Parachute in the holidays, I always thought the idea (of a book saying there is no God) was kind of stupid and somewhat offensive. I suppose, even though I believe I am aware of my situation and privileges in life I was rather naive and high minded about the whole thing. I talked to my grandmother who had grown up with religion forced down her throat, so to speak. she was sort of taught that there is only one right and that everything else is wrong. This forces people into a corner where they believe society is in a different place to where they are; and I think this leads to depression and the idea of 'settling' for life rather than forcing life to be better. By this I don't mean like in an Eat, Pray, Love kind of way but rather genuine people who aren't happy when society tells them they should be. I don't think my grandmother ever felt comfortable with the idea of God and and for Dawkins to write a book that affirms it's okay to not believe in a 'faith' but rather in life... holy shit I just realised Kinder Surprise are banned in the US? Damn. ... was really important for her and other like minded people of her generation to read.

still getting over the Kinder surprise thing.

So I'm reading The Greatest Show on Earth as I do believe in Evolution. My friend says she often gets told she's thoughtless because of her atheism- I'm not entirely atheist- although I wish I was; I wish I knew my mind and had my head planted firmly in one box. A friend of mine said just the other day she found it insulting that someone would say she was descended from an ape. It is interesting. No one seems to ever escape uninsulted when it comes to these debates. I can't see a way around it.

xx NICO. (That's not my real name by the way. It's what I'd be called in a fairy tale where I'm a mermaid)

(Although, as it happens, I am a mermaid anyway.)